ı am very aware that you are in some sort of trouble right now. You don't know what to do (actually you do know, what you don't know is how to do it), but you know what you don't want to do for quite sometime (at least).
You are stuck in a "i have to" kind of room and whenever you try to think out of this room you came across some faces (most of them green) telling you not to. There is your challenge.
If I were you, I would stop thinking for a while and ı assure you that one day you'll know what to do. In the end, you are not a versatile shampoo you don't have to be all - in - one | all at once.
Now I ask you:
who would you like to be first?
a) you b) someone similar to you
how would you like to be the person you chose to be?
a) keep doing, what you're doing.
b) stop what you are doing and ask yourself what you "really" what to do
what you "really" want to do?
dear me ı know you for 26 years now. ı know what you want. please do not feel afraid of asking for it.
keep your faith in your heart.
keep your aims & wishes in your mind.
ı love you,